“I would just torture myself in my head. Like, I can’t wear this dress because they’re going to say it’s like B. Or, I can’t have a song like that because it sounds too much like B. They’re gonna compare anyways,” said the 39-year-old singer.

The fear would haunt the “Motivation” singer for “a whole decade.”

“I would be lying if I said no, it’s never bothered me. That’s bull,” said Rowland. “There was a whole decade, if I am being completely honest, a decade, where it was like the elephant in the room. It was the thing that would constantly be on my shoulder.”

Since her time in Destiny’s Child, Rowland has been quite transparent in regard to some of her internal struggles and the lessons she’s learned during her journey. Earlier this month, she shared that there was a time in which she almost lost everything by trying to keep up with the Joneses.

“Even going through my own time where there was a lot of – no one will believe this and it’ll actually be the first time I talk about it – where I almost lost everything because I was so busy trying to keep up,” she said during an interview with Pastor Erwin McManus. “Whether it was the look, whether it was the wardrobe, whether it was the car, whether it was the place, whether it was the – you know what I mean? All that silliness.”

It’s always refreshing when people, as accomplished as Kelly, are willing to be real about their struggles.